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4/21/05
Woo Hoo I got a job, the job that i waited for like 5 weeks for finnaly came around, so its around 12:32 and of course
im still asleep because duh i stay up late at night, so the phone rings, my brother put it in my room so i could buzz him
in, so the phone rings and my vision is blurry so i jus answer the phone, wanting to get the call over with, not checking
caller id or anything, i answer it and shes like hi this is meagan blah blah blah and i was like oh meagan, meagan?! HI! i
woke straight up then i sat up in the bed and everything, she was like i was still wondering if your interested in the job
and in my mind im thinking hell yea can i start today?! But i just said yes and she kept on talking but for some reason i
wasn't really absorbing what it was she was saying, then she was like ok, on monday we're gonna need you to come in at 9am
to sign some papers and do a drug test, thats fine with me im free of drugs, on wednesday we're gonna need you to come in
for the orientation, and when can you start? I of course said asap, so then she was like ok, can you come in on thursday?
i said yes, she gave me the time and also schedualed me for friday, saturday adn sunday, already i'll have 40 hours, i should've
asked how much i got paid but i was to excited to do so, so im gonna just wait, but i've be babbaling on so much about the
phone conversation that no one knows what it is I will be doing, well for starters i'll be turning about 50 shades darker
like i did last year at wet n wild, oh the horror, the horror! Im just not getting rid of some of the tan lines that my lifeguarding
job pleasantly gave to me, but im gonna be a pool attendant, just when I thought my days of hveing to worry about sun block
was over it came right back, must apply the suntan or im gonna get skin cancer or or something when im like 40, because ya
know ever day on the news there's a new study showing that there are new ways to die in the world, just freakin lovely isn't
it? But yea, orientation is on wed.....it's freakin 9 hours long! What the hell are we gonna be doing for 9 hours?! When we
did orientation at wet n wild i don't think it was that long, i know the place is freakin huge, and i know they send you on
a tour of the place but i don't think it takes 9 hours to show us, thats ridiculas, im freakin out here lol. Thier probably
gonna be like and this is our marble floors, please get down and look at the detail of it, see the way the colors swirl into
it each other? Just for one piece of this costs about $500,000, and I wouldn't doubt it because everything is *says sarcastically*
So expensive, sometimes it makes me sick hehe.
Ok so I have an update, we just called to find out how much the pool attendants make, cause ya know who really wants
to wait until next week to find, i'm gonna be makeing freakin $9.50 an hour, when i heard that my mouth fell all the way down
to the floor, i couldn't believe that, I've never been paid that much before, i went from $6.25 to $6.00 and the price went
back up to $9.50, im gonna be one well dressed crazy chick this summer, i can finnaly pay off my credit card im so freakin
excited! I don't wanna jinx it and then lose my job the next week over that. But anyway I was doing some more research online
about th place that Im working at and i found out that for you lunch break you get one free hot meal and unlimited beverages,desserts,fruits
and salads, thats freakin awesome im gonna binge, but lets not hope that i get to be about 30lbs heavier, I don't think i
will because they have a wellness center and they "encourage" you to go there and workout, hey if i can find someone to go
with me i will, or if i have to hang out around work for awhile and and wait for a ride i can just do it down there while
im working up a sweat, lifes gonna be great this summer.
4/18/05
Well I went to a party today, apparently it was one of my older cousins birthday, we were sitting
there eating and all of a sudden everyone was singing happy b-day and i was ike whoa what the hell?! its someones b-day today?!
and then i just turned around and kept on eating, when im eating i don't have time to pay attention to others i was like uh
huh happy b-day and all that crap, i didn't get any cake, i wish i had of at least brought some home with me. This was one
of the parties where everyone was there and they were all like oh my god i havn't seen you in so long, so what are you doing
now? blah blah blah do you have a boyfriend? You all know exactly what it is Im talking about, i was sitting in the room with
all the women and they were all talking about getting old and breast feeding cause someones daughter had a baby and they were
like yea breastfeeding sucked the life out of my breast and im thinking oh well there goes breast feeding for me, im not pumping
or anything im just gonna gett he stuff off the shelf and hope for the best, the lady with the baby who was breastfeeding,
her baby is only 5 weeks old and he is huge he looked like he was at least 2 or 3 monthes, so yes apparently breast fed babies
get bigger and it helps thier ammune systems and all that stuff, im sorry thats not enough to have the life sucked out of
my boobs.
So anyway im watching a nightmare on elm street, a classic movie, who knew that this was johnny depps
first movie, in this moie freddie kruger hardly says crap, in the rest of em he has all types of smart remakrs to say to the
people he's about to kill, and in the late movies his makeup gets better, especially in Freddie vs Jason, the only one i didn't
like was a new nightmare, i thought that movie wa horrible, I also didnt like the face makeup in that one. oh well. Man, haveing
to do your own FAFSA (free application for student aid) sucks, there's many questions to ask and then you have to do this,
and have this password and number, ahve your mom sign crap and blah blah blah, thank god for my aunt, she came over and did
all that stuff for me today, so my application is pretty much done except for the fact that i have to wait afew days
for my moms pin number so it can be signed electronically and then be processed, so by the time school starts all the money
and stuff will already be there, woo hoo now i don't have an excusse for why I havn't started school yet, Im excited about
going but then again im not because HATE haveing to do school work and essays and research and stuff, can't I just not go
to college and say I did, they can just hand over my Bacholors and call it a day, but no why would life be that easy.
4/14/05
No entries today just added Gwen Stefani's new song for your musical enjoyment, now don't get to out of control and attemp
to start danceing like I did.....not cool.
4/13/04
No really big news today, still waiting for the acceptance or rejection letter, Im still being evaluated.
I got bored today and decided to post some pictures of the X-Scream, another ride Im takeing Alvin on, I havn't even been
on it but I'm confident that it's not nearly as crazy as Insanity, here are some pics of it
 
Now dosn't that just look absolutly lovely, apparently us Vegans have this thing where we like to
hang over buildings, and if its not for one's suicide then we consider it fun, but really once your up there it dosn't even
look like it's that high, and duh you won't notice it because your worried about takeing a high fall. Anyway I have yet to
wash my hair, i was gonna do it yesterday but i decided to clean my room instead, it was in desperate need of cleaning, and
i fixed the stereo stand that my brother put together horribly, the part where the speakers were suppose to sit was kind of
haning low, so i took it apart, fixed it and made it look like it does on the box, I don't have the box because the things
like 3 years old so I had to wing it and I did a mighty fine job of it if i do say so myself. I need to pay money on my credit
card, but if I give them money then Im no gonna have much money lol.
Yay Amityville comes out on Friday, here's what the house looked like then yea thats a pic from the movie of what the actual house looked like, here is the house now, it looks nothing like it
does in the above pic mind you. 
No dosn't that just look like the house that once you married you would view it and be like oh my
god I have to have this house? Exactly! Because I would be stupid enough to say some crap like that, the house is beautiful
and looks like the kind of house that I want to live in, I have however learned a valuble lesson out of all this amityville
hoopla, do research on your house before you buy it, not just because an entire family could have been murdered on it but
because it might be haunted, who wants to get into a house only to find out later that a demon who wants to chop you up into
tiny pieces lives there, not I, if an event like that did occur I would be sure to S&#% my pants and that bastard could
have the house. I was just looking on this website where they were showing old pictures of the house and other claims and
stuff, and this one person who says the family was in the backyard took pics a matter of seconds of each other, he clams to
have seen a ghost in the pics, and then they zoomed in on it and it saw it, my heart nearly dropped down to my ass because
it scared me, I've never clicked off a window so fast before, my heart is still pounding, goes to show that i can't handle
anything with ghost lol. I keep looking over my shoulders ever few min because I think that there is something behind me,
Im sorry but that was just a spooky house and even if they did renovate it they could never pay me to stay in it, Im
black, so when it comes to ghost and stuff I turn the oppsite way. Not Jenny though, she would straight up be like yea! lets
go live in the house, it'll be so cool, we could play with the ouiji board and contact spirits and all that other great stuff!.
Not cool. So anyway Gwen Stefanie has this new song out called Hollaback Girl, I saw the video on Mtv earlier today and i
thought wow this song is hott lol,the beat reminds me of something that sounds like the band in high school would play, and
Im not just saying that because in the video she was danceing around with people who were pretending to be in high school
and then Gwen (im calling her on a first name basis like I know her lol) had on this cute lil cheerleading uniform and i thought
wow that would sooooo be my halloween costume but its only april, so boo hoo. But anyway apparently the version I heard was
the clean version, and I downloaded the song today and in the first few seconds she says this my shit, I was like
whoa what?! i don't remember that being in the song! At first I was gonna go download the clean version but then I thought
that i just need to grow up and stop being a big baby, its just a word, people say it, get over it right? Since
I have nothing else to do i guess i could talk about Jenny, she is a completly different person, like, wild, I know shes a
Leo and all but damn, shes starting to act just a little bit to crazy for me, like she curses ALOT, like she thought we were
gonna go to a night club and something happend and she was like yea fuck that shit, and i was sitting there like, uh ok, and
now everything is about her haveing sex and getting some, and she drinks and does all this crazy stuff, and that's not what
im used to, she also really likes talking about herself alot to, herself and sex, and Dominique is the same way, I don't know
if thats where she gets it from but once Dominique moved in with em she started acting all weird so Im gonna be
just perfectly fine with just haning out with myself.
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4/10/05
Insane, what on earth was going on in my head last night is beyond me but it was soooo freakin awesome! Jenny calls
me up last night and she goes what are you doing tonight? I say nothing and then she goes ok get dressed we're comeing
to get you, so ok yea I did that,and I should of known something was up because whenever she calls me and dosn't tell me what
we're doing or where it is we;re going that only means one thing for me, it means we are about to go and do something
insane, like the time they told me that we we're going camping and they took me to ride the buffolo bill roller coaster, i
thought my brain was gonna fall outta my head that day, or the time they told me we were going camping again! and they took
me to this haunted hotel in Boulder City, that was not cool, so Im starting to think that whenever she says that we're
going camping that shes lying lol, only tonight that wasn't the case at all, I didn't even realize where it was we were
going until we got onto the strip, for thoes of you who don't know Vegas or just don't know the Strip at all we
have this tower called the Stratosphere it's a hotel and casino and I guess you could say mini theme park all in one, and
at the very tip top there are rides, heres the stratosphere.  and here is the top of the stratosphere  . Yes very high I know, now here is the ride I rode, cleverly titled insanity...  because you have to be very very insane to ride it, you get into these chairs and then they carry you out over the stratosphere
and they swing you around in circles while lifting the chairs diagonally higher and higher into the air, i was laughing so
hard that i had tears comeing out of my eyes, jenny was like throw your hands in the air! and then entire time I was like
i can't! I can't because i can't let go of the bar! lol all I could do was look down and thats it, while your going around
so fast you don't even realize how high you are up in the air, then when you get off the ride and look down your like whoa
I was not just dangaling over that building like that, it was so awesome if ihad the chance I would soooooo do it again. I
say that I hate Vegas but ya know what, after rideing that ride I have very much so learned to appreciate this city, I mean
in a way there's only so much to do but you can do it so many times, and since we're residence we get discounts on everyting
so we don't pay full price. and walking up and down the strip isn't always so bad because we do it all the time and make fun
of the tourist. Ahh the joys of liveing in a huge ass city. But yea going there def got me out of my little funk that I was
in, I love it when Im all happy and chipper I hate being sad and mad it sucks.
So anyway afterwards we drove to Sonic and got these jumbo sized popcorn chickens and drinks and went back home, we were
suppose to go to a night club but dominique had went ahead of time and quickly came back and said nevermind because nothings
happening there, everyone was drunk and there was like 4 people on the dance floor, didn't matter to me because I don't dance
anyway lol. So we just stayed at home an did nothing, Dominique got some, lucky bitch and we watched A Cinderella Story, yea
we're a buch of kids so what bite me!
4/9/05
Firefighters, who needs them? Let me tell you why i don't need them, next month Alvin graduates from the fire academy
and he gets to become a firefighter, great for him I guess. I shouldn't have a problem with it because we're not together
anymore yet I still do, he says that there is a big chance that we might get together so by the time we do i'd be the girlfriend
of a fire fighter, which is not that cool with me, for one they are never ever home so what'd be the point of even liveing
with someone if they arn't ever there, and then suppose he get's hurt or something? I've heard crap about the movie Ladder
49 and that just really turned me off from someone I know being a fire fighter, I've never been so against someone being a
fire fighter. And the academy he goes to now is so time consumeing, he's either at the academy or at the station he volunteers
at, so it's like almost every day of his life is about fire fighting, he asked me if we got back together would I be
able to handle him being a fire fighter, i was stupid and said yes, but now that I think about it im not to sure that i want
to handle it, I mean why should I have to, so that really gives me something to think about, I think thats gonna determin
wheater or not we're gonna get back together, it's like one of those cliff hangers that the tv shows give off at the season
finale and your like aw damn why should I have to wait almost 5 monthes to find out whats gonna happen, so I guess we'll see.
Anyway, I went to the unlv website to check my application status and it went from your admissions forms have not been completed
to your admission is being evaluated, I was a freakin A,B student though out my entire high school career not includeing my
senior year, watch them be like im sorry your rejected goodbye lol, Unlv is my ticket outta this house, a ticket that is badly
needed, it's time for me to move out and be independent ya know? But im not really gonna worry about it if it happens it happens,
and if i have to go to the community college im still gonna move out and get a roomate, I can't take much more of liveing
with my moms tyranting around the house all day, it's like she finds stuff to be mad about and complains complains complains,
I hate being around so much negativity. Last night I was in the most pesimistic of all moods, nothing was makeing me happy,
I hated the world, and i didn't even have a reason to, I just felt like being mad I guess. Camren probably contributed to
that, he's 4 now and my mom basically lets him rule the house, I just ignore it. I think my aunt is suppose to come over and
do my FAFSA next week, I could do it but I don't know exactly how to do the part about my moms taxes and crap, and my aunt
is the smartest person in our family and the only one I think went to college and actually graduated, so it's expected of
me to go to college, when shefound out that I couldn't go last year she was like AND I BETTER SEE YOU IN A SCHOOL IN AUGUST!,
I love my aunt to death but when shes serious about something (especially school) she is scary as all hell, not someone
you want to mess with lol, jr.high school is when I ran into her rage about school, lets just say I enver brought home a report
card with d's and f's on them again, it was a scary scary time *cries* they threatend to take away christmans! I did a complete
360.
4/8/05
Nothing to important happend today, didn't really do much, just like everyday, this is the longest
summer vacation I've ever had by far, and it suxs, im ready to either get a job or start school, if i could start school right
now i'd soooo be all for it. So Im watching Dr.Phil today and he has odd couples on there, there was this one couple
where they were married for 15 monthes and then find out that they are half brother and sister (had the same father) when
i heard that my eyes got so freak wide, I'd be so grossed out if i found out that i was married to and then had sex with my
half brother, thats whats going on on this cheesey soap opera I watch called passions, I never thought that it could happen
in real life though, kind of makes me wanna do background checks on every guy that im attracted to. So anyway, when I reach
the point of no return bordem I go into chat rooms, some of the people I talk to are so stupid, it really pisses me off when
I type my asl in the chatroom and then someone IM's me and the first thing they say to me is asl.... ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING
ME?! is what I think, so basically I waste my time typeing that lil piece of info out just so I can avoid that question and
then people still say that, its stupid, another thing they like to do is send me an email and be like hey im whatever thier
asl is and then expect me to respond, most of the mail i get from people that arnt in my addy book goes to my spam folder
and I never check that, so like 2 weeks later when i do check it i get all these messages asking what my asl is, it's in the
freakin room! Sometimes I don't even know why i bother going into chatrooms. Anyway, I don't know if i mentioned it before
but theres a new Amitiville movie comeing out, the commercials scare me lol, I have to change the channel everytime it comes
on, whats really freaky though is that the house is actually real and people actually live in it, so im pretty sure they are
constantly getting bugged about the house, just like when that song 867-5309 came out everyone with that number phones we're
ringing off the hook. i called it the other day, can't believe that no one in our city owns that number . I need to wash my
hair, its starting to smell not so good, eventually i'll get around to it but it probably won't be till the weekend, and thats
IF I even have enough energy for it.
Im watching Room Raiders and I was just wondering, why is it that when the people get kidnapped they
all have the same fake reaction, it's goes something like oh my god whats happening? whats going on? I can't grab my shoes?
No you can't grab a pair of shoes get your ass in the van lol, and some of the girls are air heads, they are like well, i
don't really know what kind of guys i like, well i mean i like guys who are tall, and hott, and i don't like it when they
ask me questions, because it makes me think to much, so i just let them make all the decisions...am i getting paid for this?
*twirls hair around fingers* It's funny, keep up the good work Mtv...NOT! I feel like ordering a pizza but pizza hut is closed,
dominos might still be open but i don't like thier pizza as much as I do pizza hut.
So instead aI had a corn dog, I made 2 because I thought that i would be able to eat to but
i was mistaken, I don't have the ability to eat a lot of food apparently, alvin can have like 6 slices of pizza and then
be full, I eat 1and im full, sometimes I can eat 2.
4/6/2005
YAY! Im back, and since I have nothing else to do I decided that I would start re-doing this site again, I came back
and found pics I havn't seen in so long, i looked at them and was like ew, why did i even post that up there, soooooo many
pics of me and my days where I didn't wear makeup, i look back at that stuff now and say god what was I thinking?! So anyways
hmmm lets see about a update on whats been going on with me, well I graduated, that was the best thing that's ever happend
to me so far, great day, wish I could re-live it, I tried going back to high school, but my counsoler told me no that they
didn't want me lol, I spent all that time trying to get out and now I'm tyring to get back in. I'm suppose to be in college
but Im not, I decided to take a year off, that of course wasnt by choice, im not gonna explain what happend, and not because
I don't want to, Im just to damn lazy to actually type it out, but to make a long story short, vegas colleges do nothing but
screw you over so I was forced to wait, so IM starting school in the fall, takeing a year off had always been in the back
of my mind but I never thought that it would actually happen. So yea now im looking for a job, I had an interview at victorias
secret but that didn't work out because i oddly couldn't get in touch with the lady to give her my refference numbers so I
gave up on that and moved on, then a few days later the venetian called and i don't really know whats going on with that,
its weird and I don't really feel like explaining anything about it, so Im movieng on to something else, I guess maybe Im
a little bit to pickey about where it is I want to work, Anchor Blue made me that way, I did so much crap there and got little
pay, $6.00 is what I made there and I would barely get in 40 hours a week, i worked at wet n wild over the summer, got paid
$6.25 and got a bunch of hours in for a bunch of money, best summer i ever had i don't care how much i complained about it,
if i had the chance to do it all over again this summer I so would, i got to meet so many cool people, a few that I am still
in contact with. So anyways, I got a new computer, so much better then my piece of crap sony vaio. I had so many problems
with that computer that it's not even funny, so I went to wal-mart and got my new computer, its Compaq/Hp and it was on sale
for $398, I feel that I got away like a bandit on that deal, so then a few weeks later my brother was a big copy cat and goes
out and buys a computer only he spent a hundred extra bucks on his, then gets a cable modem so he can top my lil dinky aol
dial up lol, just so he can burn cds.....ever since then I've been on his more then I have mine, only because i burn
like a billion songs a day, Im almost out of songs to burn, I can't think of anything that I don't already have, its a shame
really...ok not really Im lying hehe. I've just had alot going on ever since I've stopped updatieng this, Alvin and I brokeup...but
not before I got some nookey lol. All of my friends that said hey don't rush into sex because ya know it's not really all
that it's cracked up to be is a damn lie, after my first time I was laying there like why in the hell did everyone try to
stop me from haveing sex?! This is like the best thing ever! So anyone who says that it isn't all its cracked up to
be needs to get somebody else to do it with em because I thought it was everything it was cracked up to be and more. Alvin
swears that he put me in a coma after we finished but I'm sticking with the truth, I only went straight to sleep right afterwards
because i didn't get any sleep the night before, thats the truth and im sticking to it!
I got my bellybutton pierced in aug, yea had that sucker for 8 monthes before it turned on me and rejected, I was pissed
as all hell because I had to take it out, so next month i get to again relive the worst pain in the history of pain just so
I can get it back in, it was so cute, I don't even think I have any pics to post up here to remember it by, I betcha i'll
find one some day and come back and post it or I'll just wait till next month after I get it done again and post a pic. The
scar that was left wasnt that bad, I thought it was gonna be worse, and the new piercing will just hide whatever was left
over from the last piercing, I wasted money on 2 belly rings because I thougt that my piercing was gonna be able to stick
it out and heal right, im kind of glad that it was taken out though because it looked more like a surface piercing then it
did a navel piercing, the botton ball wasn't sitting inside my navel hole like I wanted it to so I hope whoever does me this
time gets that, and they better use clamps, if they don't Im outta that piercing place and moveing on to the next, I think
I may go to Diversity though, I would go back to the guy at Starborn but he didn't clamp me, thats what I get for not doing
any research before I got my piercing right?
2/28/04
I've been on this other website doing entries so I thought the best thing to do might be to
come here and put down all the entries from there to here, just to make things even so here theyare, enjoy but please keep
in my that its going from most recent to least recent:
2/28/04
Yay for me! Yesterday we had a job fair at my school a few people were there takeing applicantions
and stuff, so I just wanderd around for a lil while talking to my friends Katie and Jennifer for a lil while then I saw that
they had a Wet n Wild person there like they do every yeart so something inside me said go fill out and app because everyone
knows u live at that place during the summer why not work there and get in free for the entire summer, so of course I went
over there and filled out the application and i gave it to the lady, and smiled because ya know thats the nice thing to do,
and she takes it and says to me, hey can you come in for a interview on monday? And of course I said yes im not gonna be an
idiot and say no and just walk off, so that sparked up my entire weekend.
So anyway I finnaly sent that Max guy (name changed for privacy lol) guy this offline message
on yahoo, I just straight up told him the exact reason why I wasnt talking to him, in fact here is exactly what I said: your
not online right now so im just gonna leave u an offline message. You wanna know the real reasons why im acting not so intrested
anymore? Well here i'll tell you exactly why, for one you were actually rude to me on the phone one night which i dont appreciate
and now i wish i would of said something to u that night, another reason is because u knew i liked u yet you were still trying
to hookup with ashley who btw is my best friend and u really didn't care because u just wanted to have things your way and
the finaly reason is because i got tired of being led on by you and being one of your lil groupies that you go around hugging
all the time, so I thought the best thing to do was pull myself away from the situation, thats why I've been acting not so
intrested.
Yep I sure did say that to him, and then i guess 30 min later he logged on and sometimes when
people try to message me my yahoo freezes up and i dont know they sent me a message until like 30 min later or something,
but apparently he tried to send me a message and duh my yahoo froze up and then i didn't get anything from him, so when i
did finnaly realize he was trying to send me a message and when i did realize he was trying to send one he had already logged
off, so he had his cousin add me and now he's trying to figure out what the hell is going on so I just told him I'll be friends
with him but i am no longer intrested in takeing it any further then that that means no more hugs and crap like that just
a simple hello and im off to do whatever it is I need to do, and just now his cousin says this "he just has a lot of shit
going on in his life and he doesnt want to go out with anyone that hes friends with cause he doesnt want to end up hurting
soemone" That is all he had to say he didn't need to lead me on like that, and he also didn't need to try to hookup with Ashley
if he was sooooooo not wanting to have a girfriend, and earlier his cousin asked if I still wanted to go to prom with? My
question was Why should I take him? He could barely give me one good reason why I should, he said becuase your friends, yea
well friends don't lie to friends if u want my serious opinion. but I Think thats pretty much it for my lil sicotic episodes
for this week, man i live a truely boring life lol.
2/21/04
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I didn't go to school today, yes 2 days this week I havnt been. My neighbor let me borrow
Cabin Fever today, and oddly enough it didnt seem to be that good this time around, so instead of going to waste
my $20 on buying the dvd I'm just gonna have my cousin burn it for me, because he has a dvd burner, he's up to speed
on all the technology stuff and im lagging behind just by a lil bit.Anyway I dunno if I said this in my last entry or not
but the UNLV deadline is April 1, and yea i think i said this  . Im suppose to go to the mall with marcus tommorow, the mall that i somehow always get lost in
it has 2 freakin sides to it and im always like ok which way did I come in, it couldnt just have an upstairs floor,
nooooo it had to have a huge left side, and then go all the way around to a right side which is just as big, most
likely im gonna run into some old friends because thats my old side of town and t hats where all of my old friends shop at,
it'll probably be one of thoes things where we see each other, and u know how us girls do it, spot each other,
look to make sure its that person, and then go screaming to each other and hug and my like oh my god! i havnt seen u
in soooo long! And then we go on shopping, exchange #'s and most likely never seak to each other again . Anyways Alvin called me tonight and we
talked for a lil while and then the next thing i know hes freakin asleep! Im like hello? hello? and he's just lying there
asleep, he does this at least once a week and its starting to piss me off, im just thinking if ur tired just tell
me so u can go to sleep and i dont waste my time on the phone waiting for u to come to, I can't even remember the last
time i fell asleep on the phone, but oh well there's no real point in complaining about it right?
2/17/04
I havnt been to schoolin 4 days, thats like freakin heaven to me. hehe. Alvin likes my
hair cut, i'd expect him to, because well duh its cute. Anyways about Max, im soooo glad that i got over him
because he reminds me of a whiney baby, he got upset last night because i didn't wanna talk to him because i was already
on the phone, excuse me, im not gonna stop everything im doing just to have a 30 min conversation with air....because
thats exactly what I hear when im on the phone with him, we talk about nothing. So tata to that I am now prom dateless.
Moveing
on to better things to talk about, I have to go back to school tommorow, I have soooo many deadlines due, I
have 20 pages of notes due on friday, I have the UNLV deadline, myy scholoarships are gonna be due and I have to
get a shot, damn that tetnus, who the hell invented that so I could get a shot for it a few years later , they must really wanna see my cry.
My mom went to get her hair done today, shes copying me now. I think im starting to get into oprah, i've been watching
her for like the past 2 weeks, yea sure i watch dr.phil alot but i vowed to myself that I wold never be one of thoes
people who would say oh my god did you see Oprah yesterday....and guess what, i am. I only watched it today because they
had the cast of Sex and the City on it and duh im a fan of the show so Im obligated to watch it, I really had no other
choice. I have to go back to school tommorow, man i cant wait until summer vacation comes around, my bestfriend
Jenny, and Jeff and I are all suppose to go road tripping together we're gonna hit Texas, Ohio, New York and
whatever other state we have to go thru to get to our destination, Jeffs going to school in Ohio and Jenny and I are
staying here for another year, talk about the pits. But I think since we're all gonna be 18 that things will be better
because we get to gain our last bit of freedom and i get to go all buck wild and what not....oh c'mon like I would really
get that wild, I am however gonna express myself, how im gonna do this im so sure about yet. 5 more episodes of
Friends left, why are all my fave tv shows leaveing the air, whats next Gilmore Girls?
And there you have it, My 3 lost entried, wow. |
Who do guys think they are??
I havnt been here to update this is a lil while i know. So let me
start off by catching everything up to date. I got a haircut, yay for me, if anybody watches Gilmore Girls on the
WB I have mine cut like Rory's, its so much more easier for me to handle and much easier to wash and everything,
plus it makes me look just a tad bit older then I used to. Thank god for Nancy at Super Cuts because without her haveing her
hair cut the same way I would of had no idea about how I wanted to get my hair done. So on another note after i went to get
my hair cut we went to Target so I could waste more of my pre-graduation money and I got these pants, not I dont mean
to sound all conceited or anything but i brought these pants that make my ass looke absolutly great, I looked in the
mirror after i tried them on and I was like wow if I were a guy I'd so wanna hit this . So anyway lets see what else is there, oh yea, theres a guy, for anonimity lets just
call him Max, i dunno why Max thats just the name that popped into my head. So Max knows I like him well I dont like
him as much, Im not even sure I wanna have a relationship with him, Max is somewhat and asshole, he calls me
up tonight and is all like blah blah blah blah blah thats what i heard anyway cause i wasnt listening to him, and I said
u suck, now usually people respond to this by laughing and saying crap like well you swallow or u suck too, at least
thats how all of my friends respond, u wanna know what he says to me? He says you know i didn't have to call you to night,
and I'm lying in bed thinking, you didn't have to call me tonight? Are ya freakin kidding me? It's not like I was lying
around my freakin house saying oh my god Max call cause I'm dying to talk to you! In fact I'd so rather not have him call
me at all because we have absolutly nothing to talk about on the phone and not much to say to each other period. I really
just wanna make out with him, or anyone at that matter because I havnt made out in about 2 years, its not like I
need him to do crap for me and I dont need him as a boyfriend at all, I mean seriously how desperate does he want me
to be? I think his only problem with me is that he's expecting me to throw myself at him like all these other girls are doing
and I'm not doing that, I'm not calling him 24/7 blowing up the ringer on his cell phone like he wants me to, in
fact I dont call him at all. The only guy I would ever really call is Alvin and of course my cousin Marcus because they have
great sense of humors and we can actually talk on the phone for hours and not have anything to say. Unlike with Max our conversation
ends at hello and then thiers just that long ackward silence that no one likes and why should I sit there and rack my brain
trying to think of something to talk about, thats how you know if you would get along with soemone, its if when
u talk on the phone u have plenty of stuff to talk about, I can't think of one thing we have in common beside the fact
that we go to the same school. He reminds me of a girl whos on thier period all the time, he's so snappy and you dont
wanna find the wrong thing to say because you dont wanna upset the poor lil thing. So oh well I really dont care.
Anyway
I've started doing my scholoarship essays (finnaly!) I have to have this 3 page thing done beforet he 1st of march and i have
to get 3 letters of reccomendation and crap, then on march 6th I have to go for a freakin scholoarship audition,
not like I really wanna do that either, yea I love playing my violin because its a passion and I couldnt think of any
other hobby to have, but I hate the fact that I have to learn a solo, find someone to accompany me, and then
go and audition where I will probably screw up and then be embarassed , man life suxs when ur going to college. I saw The Butterfly Effect, great movie but it
wasnt a horror movie like I thought it was gonna be, the ending kinda sucked but it was for the better that it ended
that way, Ashton Kutcher is soooo hott, I didnt even realize that until I saw him in this movie, he completly
suxs on That 70's show. But the movie makes u realize that it would be really cool if you could go back into time and change
a few things about your life, theres quite a few things I would actually go back and redo just to see what the outcome
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1/9/04
wokeup late today, so I was like oh well how can I possibly go to school if Im already
late? So I went back to sleep... I just thought whater. So today I learned how to make peanut butter cookies and mmm they
were good, they taste just like the ones my grandma used to make for my older brother and me, I actually like doing things
homemade, instead of buying them premade from the store , theres something a lil rewarding about makeing your own do it yourself
kind of stuff, so therefore I discoverd I like cooking, whod of thunk it? I also made tuna today too, but c'mon who cant make
tuna i mean thats not as big of a deal as makeing homemade peanut butter cookiea, I mean seriously Camren could make tuna!
But yea that's all I really acomplished cooking wise. I watched Freaky Friday again today w/ Camren, thats gonna be another
classic movie, even considering the fact that every generation has its own version of Freaky Friday, because thier was the
first one which was made in like the 70's or 80's and then thier was the second one with shelly long in the 90's although
I didn't care to much for that one and now thiers this one, the updated one which is really really cool, makes me wish i knew
how to play the guitar. So moveing onto my homelife,(my baby's daddy a.k.a. John Mayer lol) wrote a song called homelife,
but thats besides the point. My mom continues to be the rageing freak that she is, she continues to play favorties with
camren and have everything end up being all about her and him, yet i get blamed for everything. She has the worst attitude
I've ever seen anyone with, I wish she would never talk to me sometimes, I dont even think we're related, how can she be such
a reageing freak and I am thies really calm person, mellow. We're 2 completly different people and I cannot wait until Auguest
when I can get the heck outta here and screw comeing home on Sundays to do my laundry, I'd much rather go down to the
laundry room in my residence hall and waste all my quarters on doing my own laundry. Anyway I was watching Nickelodean earlier
and I saw this commercial for Kidz Bop, ya know that cd where they take all the popular songs and let the kids sim em and
re-do them? Well it reminded me of whne I was 12 and how I thought i was sooooooo cool because I was going to the 6th grade
and I look back at tha now and I kinda wish I were 12 again, because then i was carefree, nothing in the world matters and
now that I 17 almost 18, life kinda sucks lol. I have to actually do stuff to get places and that sucks too. Thiers this new
show called My Big Fat Obnoxious Fiancee on Fox, man thier just makeing reality shows about everything, its like who really
wants to watch a show about a young bimbo blonde tricking her parents into thinking shes gonna marry this big ugly fat guy?
Not something Im really intersted in watching, I mean who really cares? Its people who actually marry people like that so
why does anyone wanna actually watch that happen? Thier takeing this reality tv phase way outta hand, I personnaly think that
all we need is The Real World and all the other few reality shows that MTV has to offer then thats it, we don't need all the
other unessasary stuff where people swear up and down that thier in love with the person they just knew for 3 monthes *cough*
The Bacholer *cough* yet people are stupid enough to still go on tv and play stupid, I think its pathetic that people in america
are so desperate to find love that they have to waste a year of thier life haveing the entertainment business talking about
thier breakup and stuff, its a huge waste of time, its just a bunch of useless mumbo jumbo. L8ter
1/8/04
Once again disappointment. I still didn`t pass that stupid math proficieny kinda
like everyone else. Seems like everyone around me is passing though hmmm a bit odd if u as me, but thiers always a bright
side to everything through my eyes, because the glass isn`t half empty its half full remember? So here`s the brght side, i
have 4 more chances to take it. So I have to pass it at least one of thoes times. I wanted to cry so badly, but its not like
me to go to class crying, so i thought i would just rant on a piece of paper and post it I took more pictures yesterday to
update all my profiles, so i guess I`ll be putting some of them kinda everywhere. I dont know why i went on another hiatus
at my webpages journal, this time it was like 6 monthes and then after a long time i felt like i wanted to do it again, so
here i am, lets see how long it lasts this time before I decide to not do blogging again. I was asleep yesterday morning and
some lady called and was like "are you gonna get up and go to work?" and i was like uh yea...who is this? and we had like
this 5 min convo of her apologizeing and telling me the mistake she made and dialed the wrong number, I was so nice because
i thought it was 11pm...yea it was more like 3:38am. lol. I felt so awake when i answerd the phone. So anyway this morning
i got off the bus and went and got my usual hot chocolate, mmmm that stuff was soooo good, and it comes in these cute lil
cups, for a doller, i have one every morning and sometimes during lunch, thats my faveorite thing about winter, u get to drink
all the hot chocolate u want, thats really the kinda chocolate i can tolorate, i hate chocolate but i only eat it 3 days outta
the month, ladies you know exactly what im talking about im sure. Final Exams are comeing up, the good thing is we get to
get outta school early next week, the bad news is we have to stay in our classes for a long a@* time and take a test. My schools
doing a blood drive....AGAIN! I swear we`re the only ones ever donateing blood, I would love to be a good person and donate
blood but i can`t even be in the same room with a needle without freakin out, im petrified of thoes things ever since i can
remember, once they had to hold me down just so they could give me one, and just when i thought I never had to get one again,
I have to go and get a stupid Tetanus shot, for the universities im applying to and I hear thoes things hur, so whats the
moral of the story kids? Never go to college lol J/K
1/4/04
Well finnaly the stupid day has come, the day before school starts and its back to doing more
school work, still cant get outta french where my teacher talks to much and i have to listen to crap i really dont care about
from everyone. But while i was on my vacation i did make a crucial descision, Im not going to UNR instead, im gonna go
to UNLV, because its cheaper and it higher the UNR does, yea sure I can't bring a microwave i'll have to rent that, but u
can't base what college u wanna go to on wheater or not u can bring your microwave, I can however rent one. And the best part
of all, my roommate and I will get our own lil bathroom, so yay we wont have to share with anybody on our floor, at UNR if
I wanted to have my own shower with my roomate I would of had to stay in the New Hall which cost $1,000 extra although
it has heating but the price is just a bunch of bull. So im gonna go into my counsolors office tommorow morning and get
an application for houseing and all that wonderful stuff and to reserve a room at UNLV it will only cost me $125, where as
at UNR its $300. In other college bound news one of my friends, well this person i know, your only a friend if we hang out
after school, wants to go to BYU, in case some of u missed that season of the real world (new orleans which also aired this
weekend) where Julie who is mormon went there, I went to thier website last night to see what all the fuss was about....and
all i have to say is (with no offense to anyone) THANK GOD IM NOT MORMON. The stuff which i will gladly copy and paste for
u to read is freakin ridiculas, I mean oh my god, thier school is not a college o' fun, not at all, you'll see, just look
down below: Honor Code Statement
We believe in being honest, true, chaste, benevolent,
virtuous, and in doing good to all men . . . If there is anything virtuous, lovely, or of good report or praiseworthy, we
seek after these things. --13th Article of Faith
As a matter of personal commitment, faculty, administration, staff,
and students of Brigham Young University, Brigham Young University-Hawaii, Brigham Young University-Idaho, and LDS Business
College seek to demonstrate in daily living on and off campus those moral virtues encompassed in the gospel of Jesus Christ,
and will:
Be honest
Live a chaste and virtuous life
Obey the law and all campus policies
Use clean language
Respect others
Abstain from alcoholic beverage, tobacco, tea, coffee and substance abuse
Participate regularly
in Church service
Observe Dress and Grooming Standards
Encourage others in their commitment to comply with the Honor
Code
Specific policies embodied in the Honor Code (1) the Academic Honesty Policy, (2) the Dress and Grooming
Standards, (3) the Residential Living Standards, and (4) the Continuing Student Ecclesiastical Endorsement requirement (refer
to institutional policies for more detailed information).
Dress and Grooming Standards
The dress and grooming
of both men and women should always be modest, neat and clean, consistent with the dignity adherent to representing The Church
of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and any of its institutions of higher education.
Modesty and cleaniness are important
values which reflect personal dignity and integrity, through which students, staff, and faculty represent the priniciples
and standards of the Church. Members of BYU, BYU-H, BYU-I, and LDSBC communities commit themselves to observe these standards,
which reflect the direction given by the Board of Trustees and the Church publication For the Strength of Youth. These guiding
principles apply at all CES institutions of higher education. The application of these principles may vary slightly at the
various institutions in accordance with local conditions and circumstances(see separate institutional policies for more specific
details on dress and grooming standards). The Dress and Grooming Standards are as follows:
Men: A clean and well-cared-for
appearance should be maintained. Hairstyles should be clean and neat, avoiding extreme styles or colors and trimmed above
the collar leaving the ear uncovered. Sideburns should not extend below the earlobe or onto the cheek. If worn, mustaches
should be neatly trimmed and may not extend beyond or below the corners of the mouth. Men are expected to be clean shaven;
beards are not acceptable. Earrings and other body piercing are not acceptable. Shoes should be worn in all public campus
areas .
Women: A clean and well-cared-for appearance should be maintained. Clothing is inappropriate when it is sleeveless,
strapless, backless, or revealing; has slits above the knee; or is form fitting. Dresses and skirts must be knee length or
longer. Hairstyles should be clean and neat, avoiding extreme styles and colors. Excessive ear piercing (more than one per
ear) and all other body piercing are not acceptable. Shoes should be worn in all public campus areas. .
As if We didn't get enough of that crap in high school, people telling us what we can and can not do
and what we can and can not wear, i would rather hurl myself off a building then have people tell me oh im sorry your skirt
is way to short, while im an adult, who would wanna go there? Not me Im happy with my freedom, and yea im all for being a
virgin and all but if i'm gonna have sex outside of marriage then oh well if it happens it happens, i dont need the proffessors
and preists breathing down my neck telling me sex is bad you will be sinned for doing it premarital and your going to
hell, in which i would respong back to them, no your going to hell for thinking its ok to marry more the one person and
then thinking its ok to have 5 billion children by them to over populate the earth and try to turn everyone mormon, because
the truth is everyone thinks that the religion is stupid its just that no one wants to speak up about it, i've heard
people say they would rather die then be mormon and some people really get offended when you ask them if thier mormon,
thier like hell no! lol, going to BYU is like saying hey im gonna go to prison but at least i'll get an education, and
i wont have a distraction because i won't be able to make out with people, but that ok because im going on my mission to bring
others into my religion. LOL it just makes me mad that someone would brag about going there. Now i know what the Church of
Jesus Christ Latter Day Saints is, its a Mormon church, won't be stopping by there anytime soon. Tonight im definetly doing
my FAFSA that way when my counsolor asks me about it when i go in to drop photography i can tell her that yes i've gotton
it all done. Finals are comeing up pretty soon, am I happy about that? Sure because the sooner we get 1st semester over with
the sooner we can get started on our senior projects and the sooner we get to graduate, Im just ready to be done.
1/2/04
I went over to Jenny's house today, we went to Boarders and looked around at some books and
stuff, they have a coffee shop in there and then thiers a Starbucks right behind thier store and I thought to myself yea sure
they have thier own built in coffee shop inside but they can't compete with Starbucks, everybody who's anybody loves Starbucks
right? And of course thier gonna take a trip there before going into the book store. Anyway afterwards we went back to her
house and watched A Guy Thing with Jason Lee and Julia Stiles, it was actually a pretty good movie, I kinda already knew it
was gonna be good though, it was funny, I think they could of picked someone who wasnt Selma Blair to play the fiancee, she
just really annoys me now I dont know why its just something about her that makes me say grrrr when i see her. The new
season of The Real World is premireing next tuesday, am i gonna be up to watch it? of course although this seasons cast isnt
all to attractive, the people wanna see pretty people right of course u do because i know i do, who really wants to watch
a bunch of ugly people running around the house in Cali? I think MTV needs to rethink thier casting the next time around.
Newlyweds is also comeing back on soon, I wonder if Jessica Simpson has figured out the Chicken of the sea thing, hmm is it
chicken or fish? Duh you dumb whore its fish, tuna fish, she plays her hair color really well on the show though , go Jessie.
I washed my hair today with this nasty shampoo because we're all outta the good shampoo, it made my hair all stiff and non-shiney
and it sucks and i hate it,its called Motions, so people be aware, never waste money on buying that shampoo it sucks, Im gonna
switch to either Panten Pro -V or Dove, i'm leaning more towards Panten though, I just don't wanna be stuck with another bottle
of suckey shampoo that makes ur hair suck. Thank god I don't have any school yet I hate going to school with hair that does
nothing but look dead and stiff.
Chatrooms are so boring now and days, i go into these chatrooms just to chat and people always
wanna know if u have a picture, and im like dude if your so paranoid about girls u talk to being guys maybe u shouldnt be
chatting in the chatrooms! And then thier are the ones that are like ooooo look at me im so hot that i can't talk to
ugly people, not only can i not talk to them i refuse to talk to them. Then thier are the guys that are actually cute, they
turn out to be jerks and then u just end up wanting to talk to the obese ugly people because they don't care what ya look
like as long as u talk to them. Anyway my mom was talking to me and my aunt today and she says Paris Hilton and the other
girl from the show, well u know that show they do came up to her job yesterday cause thier was some party goin on for them
and they were talkin about how the show whats it called the Simple Life? was a hit and how its all hot now and stuff and we're
sitting there like... Who watches the show?! lol. They had a marathon on it 2 nights ago and i wanna know, how in the hell
do u have a marathon of a show thats only had 4 episodes?! And they keep airing it like anyone cares enough to watch
it over and over again, what they should air on tv is Sex and the City, now thats something everyone watches. But thats just
my thought on the show. Alvin thinks Paris is hot and im starting to question my love for him lol she looks like a bag of
bones, i dont understand whats up with Hollywood and being all super super skinney, this is makeing my head hurt, im done
writeing for today. L8ter
12/31/03
Wholy f*@# it snowed yesterday! I live in Vegas people we're not even suppose to see snow
and low and behold when i wokeup in the morning and looked out the window it was sitting on the grass in our backyard and
on the lil roof part cloes to my window, everywhere, so then my mom decideds to make me get up and take out the trash so while
i was out there takeing out a billion bags of trash i grabbed a snow ball and put it in the freezer just to remember the day
by but anyway I just wokeup to my mom calling me from work and as usualy im babysitting my lil brother, all day long actually
just because shes working all night until like freakin 2am in the morning this is gonna be a freakin day in hell, actually
it won't my little brother listens to everything I tell him to do its just gonna be a day in hell because well I dont
wanna babysit. Anyway I have to do my FAFSA tommorow, thats this financial aid thing for all of u lucky non-senior in high
school kids out there, and i really have to start working on this 4 scholoarships im gonna do and then when i finish them
i have to go and print out more and then i have to do thoes, then have to go and get my tetnus shot which i hear hurts, and
I would have a low tolorence for pain, AND THEN, i have to fill out my 2 college apps and send in the money for the rooming
part which is like $300 but im gonna talk to this lady that works up there and is working with me to get into UNR and she
says i'll only have to send in $100 and worry about the rest later, so so far the grand total of my future college education
is $220 plus the $34 my aunt paid for me to take my SAT's I'll be happy if I even got a 900 on that, the math was kinda easy
and so were the analogies, it was the stupid stories that killed me, 3 hours to take a test thats gonna place me and college,
how funny are they.
Anyway marcus's bird, well actually he's my bird now, has been no
trouble at all, only thing is i have to put a sock on my hand when i wanna hold him because he likes to try to peck at u,
lil aggressive bugger he is, only thing he does it sing and the noise dosnt bother me at all, I guess im just one of
thoes people. Although I am one of thoes people that other people hate in the morning time, you know what im talking about
Im one of thoes people that wakes up all perky and happy and smile and stuff and everyone else is looking at me all like what
the hells your problem is 6 in the morning be grumpy like me, but all i do is turn on some music while im getting ready or
whatever and Im happy for the rest of the day unless someone pisses me off but thats really rare. I made home made oatmeal
cookies the other day and to my surprise they actually came out like oatmeal cookies, im usually one of thoes people that
wants to go and buy the already made stuff that u just add water to and they magically turn into cookies and cakes but I just
decided to try something different and i have a whole bath of the dough left, im proud of me :-) Lets see is there anything
else up? hmmmmm. 2004 is almost here and I was just sitting back thinking about when i was a freshman in high school in 2000
and how all of my friends and i thought gee year 2004 is never gonna get here and we're gonna be stuck in high school forever,
and whatdoya know its freakin year 2004 and we have a few more monthes and then we're outta here. Im getting my class ring
soon, and since im so girly girl im gonna get something pretty lol. I'm still waiting for my sernior crap to get here from
Jostens, my senior shirt, my dorm pants neclace, ya know stuff like that, this year costs to much, i wish i could just skip
and and then just move on to next fall and get ready for college, I get to take my fish in thier lil 10 gallon tank with me
if i go to UNR, cant do that at UNLV lol. Anyway thats pretty much it for today unless i can think of something else in which
i will come back and post more. L8ter.
7/19/03
Once again I hate updateing this thing but Alvin you are sooooooo lucky that i love you other wise i wouldnt
be updateing this thing at all. Anyway last night i had this amazeing crazy dream, i had this dream that i was walking around
in New York with some weird guy and Alvin was walking with me and i was walking in a wedding dress and i was all dolled up
to get married and the other guy was like if u marry me then i will give alvin a raise in the company and i was looking at
him like yea hmm how is that gonna benifit me? But anyways so we're just walking and i say to Alvin ya know what im gonna
continue to wear panty hose because they make my legs look great lol and then i said ya know what Alvin yes, yes i will marry
you and so we went off and got married and we had a limo driver take us to Victorias Secret afterwards in the mall and i'm
walking around in my wedding dress in the store and I saw a bra I wanted and it was $20 and i was thinking oh no thats way
to expensive and Alvins like no no get it get anything u want we're rich now lol. So i just started grabbing all kinds of
crap, and then all of a sudden it got dark in there and everyone who was in there was gonna and there i was wandering around
in the dark trying to look at stuff and I hear someone call my name and it was Alvin and he was like we, meaning him and the
limo driver, we were waiting 30 min for u it was dark didn't u realize the mall was closed? Apparently i didn't because my
dumb self was roaming around in the dark in a damn wedding gown. And then i wokeup, i didn't wanna wakeup i wanted to see
what was gonna happen next, I've never been married before lol.
Anyways my mom, my grandama, camren and i went to the mall today and they were looking at dresses so i started
looking at dresses too and i saw this one dress it was red and had this lil black thing that u tied around u and it went down
to your knees, well mine anyway, it basically looked like something Charlotte from sex in the city would wear, i could of
got it but my grandma was like naaa u dont need it, i could of worn it to homecomeing or something but oh well. I'm
on a quest to get a job, i have an idea of where i wanna work but unless they tell me i have to get a health card then i wont
be working there, Starbucks is outta the question because i'd have to get a health card there. Jason vs Freddy is comeing
out next month who do u think is gonna win? I htink Jasons gonna win and my older brother thinks Freddys gonna win, when we
go and see it and he gets proved wrong I'm gonna laugh in his face and get all loud even during the movie lol.
6/27/03
My family is driveing me crazy, ever since my grandma got here things have gotten freakin crazy! And it's
driveing me crazy, my grandma is constantly nagging about everything, and my family contantly keeps freakin dropping by and
eating everything in site, I hate it when people, not includeing guest u invite over, i'm talking about people like your family
think it's ok to just drop in whn they feel like it and eat you out of house and home, my cousin marcus does that which is
why i hate it when he comes over sometimes because all he does is eat! My uncle came by at 8 in the morning complaining about
money and im sitting ther like dude its 8 in the morning and you just woke us up to complaine about money, do you think i
personally give a rats ass about this? Which i really didn't care because at 8am im suppose to be rolling over in bed somewhere.
And my older brother, oh my gosh almost everytime i see him he has his lil tag along girlfriend right behind him i mean yea
i like her and all but gee do i have to see her everytime i see my brother?! And camren don't even get me started on that
lil monster, he's constantly in my face litterally with his face and hands, and not only that, ever since my mom got the entire
downstairs area tiled all i've been getting from camren is noise, he takes his stupid lil bikes and big wheels and rides around
in them and it makes all this noise that drives me nuts! I can't take all the freakin ruckus, and the wheels are plastic and
rigid like so basically the faster he goes the louder it gets and if i'm downstairs with him i have to turn the tv up
louder just so i can hear it. The only people not driveing me crazy are my mom and my aunt but i guess we'll see how long
that lasts. Another thing my grandma constantly does is she leaves the lights on in the middleof the day and morning when
they need not be on, dosn't she know that the electric company charges double between 9am and 7pm if you have your lights
on? C'mon they are trying to get you to conserve energy, open a window let some sunlight inside.
Well now that i've gotten that off my chest i can talk about something else, i was watching tv and it was
brought to my attention that they have made another Air Bud movie, i wanna know what dog is soooooo talented that humans are
gonna actually put him on a team, i dont understand why Disney thoght it would be ok to make a prequal to a stupid dog movie
like that. Anyway i got this thing from Cosmo telling me its time to renew my subscription and wow they saved me $5.00. I
wonder what im gonna do with that moeny, maybe go to the movies or McDonalds or go on an entire shopping spree with 5 bucks,
what would you do with that $5? Last night i was up late and i rememberd this joke i was told once, it goes there
was a man who had 3 daughters who just started dateing one night all 3 girls were going on dates, the doorbell wrang
and the man opend the door to a boy who had pimples all over his face and he says "hello sir my name is Joe im here for Flo
is she ready to go?" the man goes upstairs and brings her down and off they went. the doorbell rings a second time and the
man opens the door to a boy with not as many pimples as the last boy and he says "hello sir my name Freddie im here
for Betty is she ready?" The man goes upstairs to get his daughter, he brings her down and off they went. The doorbell
rings a third time and he opens the door to a very handsome young man the boy says "hello sir my name is Chuck..... and the
father shot him lol.
I was just thinking, does anyone remember that show 21 Jump Street? I was watching this thing on tv, yea
i know i watch alot of tv, but someone said the name of that show and i was like oh my god! i remember that show! I remember
being like 4 or 5 years old and flipping out over it, i remember being like mommie 21 Jump Street is on!!!!!! i can't
believe the memories of that show just fell out of my head, it's all comeing back to me now, the girls on that show
had really big hair and thoes jeans oh my gosh thoes jeans. But anywa i was watching 50 Greatest Teen Idols and can someone
please tell me who the heck is Cory Feldman? Everyone kept going on and on about him and I have no idea who that is, apparently
he was some guy that started acting at the "tender" age of 3. Anywho i washed my hair today and i blew dry it and i had what
i thought was body oil so I was like ok i'll just put some of this in my hair because not only will it make it shiney it will
make it smell good so i procceded to do so...... bad idea, i put a little in my hair and my scalp started burning lol, i was
like what the F$@!*?!!!! that was soooooooo not cool.
I was going through my cd collection and i noticed that my cd collection dosn't belong to a specific genre
of music it's like a big ole mess full of music it's like i have soundtracks here, country music there pop crap in the corner
and 1 rap cd which is Eminem, its really sad if u ask me lol.
6/25/03
I took a looooonnnnnngggggg break from this thing, maybe a week or 2, it's weird how i feel more relieved
when i don't come and update this thing, i'm only really doing it so Alvin will have something to read at work :-). Anyway
nothings really been going on, Jenny's off my shit list and i stayed over at her house last week which was also the same week
that my grandma made it to town so now shes here just hanging around with the family and cooking stuff for us i don't think
our kitchen has ever been happier because when its just us it hardly ever gets any use, and not nearly as much use that my
grandma puts to it, her and my mom have been out and about just about everyday since shes gotten here. Anyway i got my report
card 2 weeks ago and we looked at it and we saw a,a,b,b,b,F i was like whoa what the hell?! my first F on a report
card in the history of high school career so now lucky me gets to take geometry over for a quarter damn i hate math!
Seriously though when am i gonna use geometry in my everyday life? I'm trying to be a doctor not a freakin architech they
shouldn't require you to take that class if it dosn't go along with your career path, so now i'm gonna have algebra 2, and
geometry for a whole quarter, and then when i think im done with that thier gonna put me in math application untill i pass
the state proficiency exam, well just the math part anyway, i can not wait untill my high school career is over thats gonna
be the happiest day of my life because i wont ever have to pass a state exam again.
While i was at Jenny's for 2 days we went and saw Wrong Turn and Hollywood homicide, they were both good,
all i'm saying about wrong turn is there is no way that i am ever gonna take a road trip especially not when my friend who
are probably gonna be the drinking type wanna go out in the middle of nowhere, because i don't wanna take a "wrong turn" and
then get stranded in the middle of nowhere so a set of 4 mutant like humans can come out to get us take us back to thier lil
cabin hut lookin thing and chop up our body parts i'm not down with that lol. So if i ever need to go anywhere cross country
it will either be by bus, place, or train, never car, so Alvin when we go to New York we're sooooooo not driveing, it's not
that i do't trust you i just don't trust the canabalistic mountain men lol. I've started watching that really corny looking
show Paradise Hotel it's actualy really good, yea sure some of the people are ugly and there gonna bet he first voted off
but that crap is scandelus, i wouldn't be caught dead on a show like that because it's just crazy, is there something wrong
with finding love in your own private way without haveing to let all of america know about it and then let them see you when
you get rejected or something? Maria's baby shower is sunday i can't wait to go, i'm gonna eat cake, food and more cake and
then play baby games and talk baby names and its just gonna be baby, baby,baby except there probably gonna make us play that
game where your not allowed to say the word baby and if you do you lose your ribbon. Cute.
6/13/03
Happy Friday the 13th everyone, if
your superstitious, like my mom is, then you think today is a day of bad luck, as for me I see this as a day to watch
a Friday the 13th Marathon!!!!!! Last week I saw Avril Lavigne in concert on the family channel and i was not amazed
at all, you know how they say alot of people are suppose to be better in concert then they are on cd? well she was not one
of thoes people, she wasent hitting any of the notes that she hit on her cd and i was sitting there like whoa what the hell
happened to all those high notes u were hitting before on the cd that i could barely do? And then she brought 2 of her fans
on stage to help her sing Complicated it was a boy and a girl, she gave the mic to the girl and yea she did alright, but then
Avril made a mistake of giving the mic to the boy, he was allll on the wrong verse, avril was on the second verse where she
was like "you come over unannounced dressed up like your something else where you are and where its at you see your makin
me" and the guy sang this part "i like you the way you are when we're drivein in your car and your talkin to me one
on one and you become" and i was like oh my god he just totally messed up that song! I was embarrassed for him, and Avril
all she could do was laugh because it was funny, but if i were him i'd of been sooooo embarassed especially since they put
it on national tv, well he's probably not gonna see it because they were in Europe somewhere, or was it Paris? Hmmm i dunno
but where ever it was it wasn't here because everyone had accents.
In other news I have like a lil stalker, its
this lil boy, well he's not really a stalker and he's not really a lil boy but I met him a few days ago and i dunno, maybe
he's obsessed with me or something but its like as soon as i sign onto yahoo he's like bam! right there messaging me he's
like What'd you see, where'd you go,who'd you see what do ya know? And im like um ok can i please have some breathing room
all these questions are not cool, and he's always telling me that he needs a girlfriend and he wants one and im like um ok
thats great what do you want me to do about it? I'm not about to trop my 2 year and 4 months (but whos counting lol) relationship
to serve your needs and I don't wanna be mean because i unforuchonetly have a stupid consciences so i guess i just have to
put up with it but i hate the way he treats me like I'm some kind of love counselor, as much as i would love to play cupid
i can't help him. Anyway, i made a new friend last night, his name is Bob, he's this lil alligator that camren wanted in the
store yesterday so we got it for him and we open the package and gave him to camren and he threw him on the floor because
he's afraid of it, its one of thoes lil alligators that when u throw it against the wall or something it sticks and then a
few seconds later it comes back to you, well camren was petrified of it and started crying when i put it on him, so i befriended
the lil alligator its cute, I like him.
Last night Alvin and I decided that when we move in together we're not gonna have 1 puppy but we're gonna have 2, one
is gonna be mine and the other is gonna be his, I want a dog like the girl in Lady in the Tramp, I love the way her ears were
all long and stuff, and what am I gonna name her? Daphney, that better not be the name of the god in that movie, because if
it is i woulden't know, I've never seen the movie before, I just remember seeing the lil part where her and the scruffy lookin
dog shared that long noodle of spagettie like that really happens anymore, i only wish they made lil noodles that long now
and days. Anyhow apparently at 17 I have frequent flyer miles yes, from delta airlines, they sent me this thing and apparently
i have 520 frequent flyer miles, and they also sent me this thing where they let me order 5 magazein subscriptions for free,
so i selected, Jane, Essence, Shape, Modern Bride, and some home and country thing i dunno what it was there was anything
else on there that interested me and they all say the same thing, please allow 4 to 6 weeks for magazeins to start arriveing,
speaking of arriveing, I went to the mall yesterday and to the grocery store and they all have the new issue of Cosmopolitan,
I am a loyal customer and i've subscribed to it and i have yet to see my copy, Drew Barrymore is on the cover for thoes of
you who havent seen it yet. My moms friend Maria, who happens to be my favorite friend out of all of her friends, is haveing
a baby, its a boy, we're throwing her a babyshower on the 29th, guess who got stuck makeing the invitations.... yep thats
right, me, because i was stupid and got Printmaster Gold so i can make cards and stuff, my mom volenteered me. Lovely isnt
it?
6/10/03
Grrr on the who needs a lil bro note again, someone pleeeeaaaaasssseeee take mine, I finnaly get around
to washing my sheets and comforter and stuff and i put it all back on the bed fresh and clean and what does he do? well let
me tell ya he spills milk and toddler slob on parts of it i hate it when he does that i dont care how cute he is. Anyway i
went driveing with my mom again and we were just sitting in the car talking for about an hour about boys, men, alvin lol and
she some how managed to turn that into what sounded like a Sex and the City conversation and started useing the F word, because
she was talking about this guy who she just met and he told her that he didn't want anything seriouse and my mom was like
so what does that mean? does that mean he just wants to fuck? and i was like mom! please! lol, and my plea's went ignored
because she continued to use that word and she was telling me about her friends at work and how they use it and she said her
one friend will be standing there with her and some guy would walk by and her friend would say I'd like to fuck him, and I'm
thinking ma you can't be useing that word with me i'm your daughter not your friend it sounds weird when your talking about
sex with your mom, its very uncomfortable i didn't care to much for it, i tried to get her to use the word screw but no go
on that. She's out getting her hair done and i'm babysitting Camren, he just fell asleep listening to Nora Jones thank god
for her soothing jazzy cd.
Anywho i went and signed up at whatthedilly.com last night and i had just finished filling out my profile
and i typed alllllllll this stuff for my profile and i kept telling myself ok just hit enter but nooooooooo i looked up and
saw that my location was wrong so i was like ok let me fix it so i clicked the link and then i realized that i didn't hit
enter to save so i hit the stop button but when i did it was to late everything i had typed out go erased i was soooooo mad
because i knew i was gonna do that and i did, thats not the only time i've done that before, I just have the worst luck when
it comes to doin stuff like that, but i was looking at pictures of some of the people on there and wow not alot of them were
cute, i'm not saying that i'm the most beautiful person in the world but some of the people on there should be ashamd to even
wanna put a picture of themselves up like that. I need to go and buy a curling iron, and to do that I need to get my allowance
money, so I'm waiting formy brother to bring his butt back over here so he can give me his share of the goods but he
probably wont come today seeing as how its 4:03 pm right now and he's at work, oh well just as long as i get it before July
16th because thats when i have to be really pretty for like 3 days.Guys in chatrooms are still being dicks, I guess the new
thing to say to girls is "do you wanna play" and by that they mean do u wanna cyber, roleplay or have phone sex or just talk
dirty, so instead of getting mad i politly say to them "no but i would love to chop your cock off" hmm for some reason they
get really quiet and stop talking to me theres no real point in getting mad u just have to learn to deal with the idiots that
come across you in life, what am i dr.phil now? And another thing when I go into chatrooms I usually have my pictures
in my profiles and naturally people are gonna look at em because thats what thier there for, but i get sooooo sick and tierd
of hearing people say to me your cute or your hott, it get old, i wish they'd say something new to me like hey i actually
read your profile and u seem like a tubular person well not use the word tubular exactly but something
like hat, i even have girls comeing up to me and saying it, really I don't care what they say to me, i don't wanna know what
they think of my picture i just wanna have a nice decent chat conversation where looks haveing nothing to do with
what we're chatting about, i haven't had one of thoes in a loooooooooooooooong time I only seem to really have decent sometimes
seriouse conversations with Alvin, thank god for him being my saveing grace lol with out his decent convos i'd be goin outta
my mind!!!! Well I'm starving so i'm gonna go make up something to eat and maybe watch Trojan War again. Toodles.
6/9/03
My mom and i just went driveing not to long ago, we were just driveing around the neighborhood and talking and laughing
and me, well i had my feet hanging out the window lol they've never felt so free before in thier lives, and thats 17 years
of age let me tell ya. But yea that lets u know how much of a dork i am, yep just me and my feet. But anyway while i was rewatching
my Sex and the City series over again i got a surprising call, Alvin called me, and it was weird cause i was just sitting
there when the phone rang and i had this thought, and the thought was "i bet this is alvin" and i was right, i wasent really
expecting to be right but i was but anyway when i saw his name come up my eyes widend and i was like whoa! Then i got all
nervouse and fidigity yea thats right he still makes me nervouse, after 2 years he does, maybe its just me. Speaking of which,
he's a Fireman ladies and gentlemen, a bonafied hero! He volenteers at the fire department, and you know what they say about
firemen, so ladies, eat your hearts out. But enough about him lets talk about me more, my sloppy eating quest continues, our
next door neighbor barbaqued today and she brought us some over because we didn't feel like going outside to mingle woth the
other people, she made barbaqued ribs and man they were so good i had sauce all over my face and hands and i was licking sauce
off of everything, except for the plate because i had already put that in the sink to be washed, I cant be taken to places
where they babrbeque, i should wear a sign that says "DO NOT FEED IT BARBEQUE" so people can be warned of my messy eating
and all. I was just re-reading everything that i wrote and i noticed that i said but alot, its like but but but but but, but
what?
I was bored today and flipping through the channals and landed on HBO and this movie called Muriels Wedding and I thought
it was gonna suck but it was actually good, its a british movie and i love thoes, thier accents are so freakin cool, i wish
i had one, but when u really think about it to them we probably have accents to, but our talk is just really weird, but anyway
back to the movie, there was this beautiful gorgeouse man in there that she marries and kinda like in the end shes like i
cant stay married to you, because i don't love you i would be lying to myself if i stayed married to u and i'm looking at
her like what the hell? What do u mean you cant stay married to him he's freakin gorgeouse, you can learn to love him, i would
of stayed married to him he was to cute to just throw away in the streets like that. Anyway on another note, i was watching
yet another episode of Sex and the City that I somehow over looked on my disk and guess what, Carrie (Sarah Jessica Parker)
kissed Alanis Morissette, who was playing a lesbien character on that episode, thats right ladies and gents you heard it here
first, she kissed a girl.....actually you heard it here second if you actually watch the series then therefore u saw that
episode way before I did and this is just old news yo you.
Camrens wearing Pull-Ups now, they look soo cute on his lil tushie and the best part about it is now he can change them
hisself, he dosnt need me to go off and change a diaper for him whenever I babysit, so I'm lovin the who training pants thing now.
6/4/03
Today is the day of my freedom! I've waited soooo long for this to come and entire year actually and now
I am a senior, i've waited 11 freakin years to be one and now that i am one i don't feel any different, just another 12 monthes
untill i gradeuate, thats a long time, but not as long as freshman and sophmores have till they gradeuate, if i were asked
to do High School over again believe me I woulden't because I just hate my school and I'm tierd of being told what to do its
like going to a place with a bunch of parents, i go home and get told what to do and then i wakeup and go to school where
i'm told what to do, its like a never ending cycle.... untill next summer anyway. Then its complete and utter freedom, that
i'm probably not gonna know what to do with. I took my last final exams today which were geometry and american lit, i think
i did horribly on the geometry one because i just started guessing on a bunch of them it made me frustrated and then to top
it all off I forgot my calculater this morning so i had to borrow my teachers which i had to figure out how to use, u shouldent
have to do that with a dern calculater, ya i said dern.
Anyway, I made taco's well actually burritos the other night and i put a whole bunch of sour cream and sauce
on it, man thoes things were so good, in fact they were so good i turned into a sloppy eater, i had stuff all over my face
meat and stuff just started dripping out of the lil tortilla thingy and it was just not one of my best moments at all, i'm
usually a well mannored eater, I've eated nicer with sloppy joes! Now thoes are meant to be sloppy ya know! And i hate to
have stuff dripping down from my food but i didn't care i was in burriot heavan and i'd do it again if i had to.... I'm actually
makeing more tommorow night, I'm comeing into my cooking hood!
As for my Sex and the City quest I finnaly finished both seasons, on monday i spend 12 hours sitting on
my ass watching a bunch of episodes, i'd occasinally get up and take a break to play the sims or eat or something then it
went right back to me sitting back down on the floor, i changed positions so many times, first i was on the floor then the
bed, then i was laying upside down on the bed, laying on a pillow on the bed sitting indian style on the floor it was just
a crazy thing. So then the night after that i wokeup at 5:00am just so i could watch Trojan War with Jennifer Love Hewitt
and Will Freidle I almost didn't wakeup but i kept saying to myself if u don't get up u may never see it again so i got right
on up.
Anyway on tv thiers American Juniors its basically American Idol for kids and there were alot of 6,7,and
8 year olds, i persnally think the show is stupid because i really don't wanna be hearing a lil 8 year old super start with
his/her lil squaky voice, thats not gonna make me go out and buy thier cd i don't care how cute they are, reality tv has taken
a turn for the worst, i blam The Real World, they started all this lol, speaking of which did anyone happen to see the
new season last night Real World Paris? They shocked me on that one, i was soooo suret hat they were gonna be in Vancover
or something, I know when i audition for that show and if i ake it they better not try to make me go to a different country
or whatever.
And on a relationship note, I talked to Alvin a few nights ago and he was trying to make me listen to this
song and then entire time i'm like no leave me alone I don't wanna hear it, so he woulden't shutup about it, he wanted me
to hear it because he said the song described how he felt about me so i was like fine i'll listen to the song, its called
Comfortable by John Mayer, not even 2 min into the song I was in tears crying, 1 because the songs really beautiful and 2
because he said its how he felt about me and i was listening to the lyrics and i was just so happy that thats how he felt
that i just coulden;'t help myself, if anyone were as emotional as i am i'm sure they'd be crying to, but i was reading about
it and there were actually guys who said this song made them cry so because i' am me i'm gonna post the lyrics down below.
I just remember that time at the market
You snuck up behind me
And jumped on my shopping cart
You
rolled down aisle five
You looked behind you to smile back at me
Crashed in to a rack full of magazines
They asked
us if we could leave
Can't remember
What went wrong last September
Though I'm sure you'd remind me if you had
to
Our love was comfortable
And so broken in
I sleep with this new girl
I'm still getting used to
My friends all approve saying 'She's gonna be good for you'
They throw me high fives
She swears the bible is all
that she reads
Prefers that I not use profanity
Your mouth was so dirty
Life of the party
And she swears that
she's artsy
But you could distinguish Miles from Coltrane
Our love was comfortable
And so broken in
She's
perfect, so flawless
Or so they say
She thinks I can't see the smile thats she's faking
And poses for pictures
that aren't being taken
I loved you
Gray sweatpants
No makeup
So perfect
Our love was comfortable
And so broken in
She's perfect, so flawless
I'm not impressed
I want you back
6/1/03
Little brothers, who needs em. Anyone who wants mine I will gladly give him to you. Why? because he did
something really gross to me not to long ago. I was just sitting at my computer just chatting away with some people and i
smelled something and I knew it was him and I thought oh well ok I'll just have to change his diaper but then the smell kept
getting stronger and stronger so i'm thinking he's not even that close to me why am I smelling it so strongly and I get up
to go where he is to figure out what the heck is going on and low and behold he took a crap on my floor! I was sooooo mad,
he's infuriating! So I started yelling and thats when i discoverd I'm not really a loud person because while i was yelling
i was trying to get loud but i couldn't get as loud as i wanted to be, it was like something was holding me back more like
something holding my voice back so i had to scrub my carpet and throw him into the bath tub and scrub him down to, and he
was just in there playing with his lil hot wheels cars like nothing ever happend, so i just left him in there for awhile while
i cooled off so now i'm over it and now my room dosn't smell like baby doo doo anymore.
And something thats completly unrelated to that, I was in a chatroom the other day and i was getting asked
really stupid questions so I got fed up with it and made a list of questions i get asked in chatrooms and my responses in
the whos "that girl" section so you can just mosey on over there and take a look see.
Moveing onto my b-day yesterday, my mom got me a $200 voucher at Target and of course since she bought it
her and camren just had to get something but anyway I bought myself a bunch of useless crap like Season 4 of Sex and the City,
lip gloss, nail polish, 40 days and 40 nights, The Good Girl, Norah Jones, Nelly Furtado, John Mayer, and electric shaver
(equipped with a bikini line trimmer lol) and some candy and i think thats it unless i forgot something and i think I did
but i'll remember later then I bought my mom some kitchen stuff and i got camren 2 lil cars, a spidermad figurine and a Finding
Nemo outfit, and my brother got me Season 3 of Sex and the City, thats 36 episodes for me to watch which comes down to a total
of 18 hours! For me to sit my lazy ass down in front of the tv and watch them get some. I got a bunch of phone calls yesterday
from everyone wanting to wish me a Happy Birthdat (not includeing Jenny) and even Kamara who i haven't talked to in monthes
called and said happy birthdat, was i shocked? Yes i was because I wasn't expecting to hear from him at all, I didn't even
know he rememberd, I know I'm on good terms with all my ex-boyfriends but gee, I even talked to paul but i had to tell him
it was my b-day we werent together long enough for him to actually know or remember lol. The 3 cd's i bought are very
excellent they all have bitchen songs on there, I expected John Mayers to be good though because every song he has out on
the radio but my favorite one on his cd still is City Love that song is awesome! And thank you Alvin for introduceing Mr.
Mayer to me by the way. Norah Joneses cd has soothing music that will make u wanna go to sleep and thats what she made
me do yesterday, i was like well i'm going to sleep anyway so i might as well turn u off, and i did so. I haven't watched
The Good Girl yet, I think i'm gonna watch it before i actually start on Sex and the City because its gonna take me at least
2 or 3 days to finish both seasons.
Finals are tommrow I have to take French and orchestra yay for me but i'm not worried about passing thoes
because i know i will, the only thing i'm really worried about is geometry because I suck in there, never got above a D in
that class my entire junior year, thats kinda sad if u ask me I tried, i really did but nothing worked for me and also before
i forget, apparently I'm on the Honer Roll because i got this one paper to fill out and thier putting me in this national
honer roll society book or something like that and they also sent me this lil certificate thing its cute, and oh yea again i
got my proficiency results back yesterday and boy i didn't do as good as i thought, i got the same score that i did the first
time i took it, thier not gonna let me gradeuate lol j/k. Anyways I'm off to go and do something completly useless for myself.
5/30/03
Tommorow's the big day, I will officially be 17, a so not "even" number, 17 is odd I'm not to fond of odd
numbers really, all the even ones are cool. Anway I have officially slipped out of my lil mini depression that i was talking
about, I"m glad thats over with, I hate feeling all mean and icky, and i bet that it was because it was that time of the month,
and it still is, untill tommorow, anyway I'm back to my perky happy self again. I see the world through rainbow
colored sunglasses...whatever that means. Today was the last day that i could actually carry a backpack to school, or go to
school for 6 hours or see all my junior year teachers in one day, i should of cherished it, we have fianls on mon,tue,and
wednesday and then thats it I'll be a senior, finnaly the day I've been waiting for through out my entire school carrer and
i still don't really feel any different, hmmm perhaps i will think differently once its time for me to gradeuate, and the
best part about it is, i might not have to take the math proficiency to gradeuate so woooo hoooo for that!
Anyway tommorow my presents will be revealved, I've been trying to call my brother and tell him I want sex
and the city season 3 not 4 because season 3 is when Chatrlotte gets married to Trey and i really wanted to see her wedding
so then I could get some ideas on what to do on my wedding besides get cold feet lol not litteraly. I've been playing
the sims more, without the cheats and that game is freakin hard my sims start out all poor and stuff and they end up liveing
in these tacky lil ugly houses and its just really sad I wanna use the cheats but whats the fun in succeeding with the cheats
when at that point your sims don't even have to work and they just mope around the house all day? And another thing that
should of probably went in the first paragraph, at school today while i was giveing my lovely autograph and messeges in yearbooks
lol, some of my friends came up to me and they were all like happy birthday and hugging me and stuff, now while my b-day is
tommorow everyone thought it was today and i liked the attention so i didn't tell them any different lol. Is that bad?
5/28/03
I didn't get my phone fix from Alvin last night so I wasen't really a happy person last night, and to top
it all off I'm cramping to, let me tell ya that is not a very good combination at all lol. Anways the days of school are windeing
down to the wire and its kinda sad, I watch the season finalie of Gilmore Girls 2 weeks ago and Rory gradeuated and it kinda
made me realize that next year I'm gonna be gradeuateing and that's gonna be it, I wont be able to do high school anymore
so that made me upset and i cried a little, oh who am i kidding i cry over everything lol. Anyway yearbooks are out and thier
freakin everywhere I've been looking at the same pages over and over again all day long. We had our final orchestra concert
last night and I called and invited Jenny and she says to me that most likely she was gonna be there, she knew what time it
started and she didn't even bother to call and let me know wheater or not she was comeing and then didn't bother to call and
apologize about it, probably because shes so wrapped up in herself or Jeff to even bother with me thier like best friends
now doin everything together, anyway back to the orchestra thing, it actually went very well except for the theme from Schindlers
list, like we knew it that song didn't go to well at all simply because we weren't the greatest at playing it I kinda knew
my part but as for hte other sections that weremt violins they didn't do so hott :s. And as for me well i could barely stop
shakeing the arm that held the bow and I noticed that whenever I had a rest in my music i'd look up at my bow and u could
see it ratteling a lil but so I'm hopeing that anyone who was tapeing the concert didn't zoom in on me because they would
definetly be able to see me rattelin along with my bow and it was harder for me to play and harder for me to hold onto, but
all in all I say the concert went pretty damn well. So I'm watching the movie Enough with Jennifer Lopez even though i hate
the bitch but i really wanted to see her movie because it looked really god and i'm hopeing that i don't marry a total nitcase
like her crazy husband sheesh.
Anyway I don't really have much to do now I'm kinda just sitting here, but i did just remember I had this
crazy moth experience yesterday while i was getting ready for the concert yesterday, I went to open up the medicne cabinet
to get the nair out for my legs and out of nowhere this moth comrd outta the cabinet and starts flapping away so I naturally
get the bug spray and i spray it and he went down and then he went down and into the sink and eventually down the drain, that's
luck if u ask me because i wasent really looking forward to killing any bugs well not manually anyway, hmm i'm hungry I think
I'll go get something to eat. So I think i've fallen back into another one my lil mini depression things again I'm just not
a happy camper right now, maybe its because it's that time of the month or somethind i dunno, I just don't really feel like
being botherd with anyone, kinda like I wanna be alone, isolated is probably the best fit word I'm looking for man I need
to get some Midol, I'm haveing problems and have no one to talk to about em with, no one i really trust anyway, well I do
have my journal, not this one I have one that I keep to myself, thats where i write about everything, it's almost outta pages
and I need to be getting a new one soon so I can write about my Senior year, my final year in HELL, but when I look back on
it 10 years from now I can be like haha I was such a dork. So I'm watching this movie on HBO called Normal and it's suppose
to be about this guy whos haveing a sex change because he has this condition and it kinda messes up his family and everything,
it's kinda depressing, I don't know why I'm still watching it, I feel sorry for the guy because no one really understands
him....kinda like me.
5/25/03
I went ot my lil cousins b-day party yesterday and even though i'm not to fond of her i realized 2 things,
1. I live in a family full of well mannerd lil kids and 2. I also realized how much i really loved kids, i had to serve ice
cream and everyone was all like excusse me miss can I have this falvor or i want that one please it was soooooo cute and Camren
was standing behind me holding an empty ice cream cone and he was being all patient like ok i'm just gonna stand here untill
u realize that your only baby brother wants some of that ice cream u got up there and then afterwards I got some of that ice
cream for myself, the cake was excellent, it was 50/50 chocolate and vanilla so i wassatisfied because i didn't have to eat
chocolate, I mean really how many parties do u go to where u don't get to sa what flovor of cake u want? Not many let me tell
ya, i've been to alot of parties where i've been forced to eat chocolate and not a whole lot of it either, unless i wanted
to puke up on someone and that wouldn't of been a very pretty sight. Speaking of unpretty sites, I had this dream the other
night that i was at my grandmas house and the room that i was sleeping in had this huge blackwidow, actually 2 of em, and
at first i was just dreaming that it was a web with spiders and the next thing i know theres like this huge ass blackwidow
spider dome and it looked just like the spiders but black with that lil red thing on it, it scared the crap outta me and then
when i wokeup i looked in the corner of my room and reaized where i was. That dream wasen't even cool.
So I'm still continueing to do my yoga, yea it hurts but just something i gotta get used to, stupid Lori
can do everything on there, and theres only one thing i can't do because i'm not flexiable enough, i hate her because
she can do it I'll show her, just wait till i get flexable enough then i can be like HAHA! behold what i can too do now. 6
days till my b-day and 10 till summer vacationSpeaking of which there are a total of 3 not counting my family members
that remember my b-day, Savannah, Alvin, and Karen, notice how none of them are Jenny, for somereason my b-day has always
been neglected by her, and i'm not gonna remind her either, because i know her b-day and lets just seen what i do for her
on it, i'm not doin anything, I don't feel motivated enough to wanan do anything for her so i'm not gonna, last year we went
up to Bloulder City to go into this haunted hotel she was talking about and then we went to the Hoover Dam, it was alright
i've had alot more fun bfore though.
5/21/03
I was sooooooo close to not comeing to school today because my hair wasn't really cooperating with me it
didn't wanna do anything i wanted it to which suxs butt but whatever I ended up going and i had to jump the wall because
someone chained up the gate that i usually walk out of, stupid gated community!!!, and i ended up haveing to jump the wall
and let me just say I am not a wall jumper that wall shouldn't be that high anyway whats wrong with the people who built it?
They pourposly made it so short people like me wouldn't be able to cross it, i feel so unloved. Everyone keeps asking me what
i'm doing for my birthday and i don't really know what to tell em, i'm just getting some cake and ice cream,eating it, and
then going shopping with a whole lotta money that i'm getting from my mom, I think i'm finnaly gonna go out and buy thoes
new boy short cut panties that i've seen in Cosmo a billion times because for that one day i wll be able to afford it lol.
Thiers a ceartain someone who shall remain annonymous who probably dosn't remember my b-day, i'll test her out and see if
she remember, outta all my friends no one remembers except Alvin but he's kinda more then a friend and he's expected to remember
but my friends are expected to remember more then he is.
Anyway i kinda squeeled on someone today completly by accident, thiers this freshman in my orchestra class
and i'm always teasing her and telling her that she dosn't need to be messing with the lil boys at our school and i saw her
today and said something to her this morning, well when i got to my orchestra class i continued with the same speeche telling
her that she dosn't need to be messing with the boys and blah blah blah and then i said that the boy she was walking with
this morning is always kissing Fantasia on my bus right before he gets off and she was like what? na-uhh, and i was like uhh
yea he does and outta nowhere she says thats my boyfriend. and i was like umm oopp's that slipped lol, but seriously if my
boyfriend were cheating on me i'd so wanna know about it why would i wanna let him think that it's ok for him to have his
cake and eat it to, i think he thought he was J.Lo and you know how she whore's herself around, i wonder who shes gonna marry
next week. I got a C on my chemistry test, i was kinda sure I was gonna do well on that but i guess I did fine enough i just
cant wait for all of this school junk to be over. 4 day weekend baby!!! I can tell you exactly what I'm gonna do with all
of my valuable no school time, sleep, call me lazy if u want because thats exactly what I am.
3/20/03
Nothing has really been going on this week well actually just for today and yesterday. In my literature
class we finished reading the play a raisin in the sun i thought it was actually good because i'm a dork like that thats what
our final is gonna be based on so i know i'm gonna pass because i like the play enough to pay attention to it. I have to take
my chemistry test and history quiz tommorow because i wasen't at school yesterday so they always give u one more day to study
and i'm glad about that because i forgot how to do a half life problem in chemistry but the rest of the stuff should be easy
because thats basically vocabulary and if and when i study i usually do pretty well on thoes. Anyway did anyone happen to
catch that Martha Stewart movie last night? i had no idea that she was that crazy you think that someone is actually normal
until they make a movie about em, i wonder how Oprah really is. Hmmm makes u wonder.
So last night Alvin and i made this bet, i'm not gonna say what it was about or what the winner get but
i do know that he better get ready to get his butt kicked lol. Unsats came out over the weekend, thoes are notices telling
u what classes your not doing so hot in, i only got 1 in geometry and i seem to get one every quarter but alot of my friends got
em from orchestra and i was kinda thinking how and the heck can u do bad in orchestra? apparently if u don't bravado, and
i don't, my teacher takes points off for that and i guess thats enough points to make u have a c,d, or and f, i think
thats stupid ur teacher last year never pulled and stupid crap like that, my teacher this year is just crazy i don't care
how cute he is. 11 days untill summer vacation i'm so physced but it seems like 11 days is sooooooooo far away maybe if i
stop couting then it wont seem so far away, all u college kids that are out on vacation, this means u alvin, u all suck!!!!
I got a buch of prom pics from my friends and i'll post em below for everyone to gaze at lol.
5/18/03
This is my first entry since Febuary, I went on this huge hiatus on my other site and when i got back
the crap on the site was takeing so long for me to actually update till i was like ok whatever I don't care anymore about
updateing it because crap shoulden't take that long to load up in order for me to finish it, it was really ridiculas if u
ask me and who wants to wait that long to get something updated? Not me if u really want the truth so anyway nothing has really
been goin on with me besides the Fact that I'm gonna be turning 17 in 2 weeks and then 4 days after that I will officially
be a senior, am I stoked about that? You bet your sweet ass I am i can't wait, all my life i've waited to be a senior and
now after decades or at least what feels like decades of waiting its finnaly here and after I gradeuate where am i headed?
Texas baby!!! Long story about that and i'm not gonna get into it. Speaking of which, i was talking to Alvin not to long ago
and we've come to the conclusion that we've been together for 2 years,pretty long time dontcha think? to me the key to getting
a good relationship is actually being friends first for awhile and then takeing it and turning it into something more
its jsut a whole lot better for both people.
But anyway a few weeks ago i bought the Sims on Nintindo GameCube, that games bitchen its alot better
then the one on PC but the only thing that suxs about it is u can only have 2 kids when on the one on pc u can have up to
5 or 6 and the one on GameCube there's a limit to how much stuff u can actually but so yea thats the whole downer thing. But
the game is still fun it looks all 3-d and stuff. I think for my birthday I'm gonna get this really cool cam i saw at Target
it comes with a cute lil tripod and all this unessasary stuff that i wouldn't really need. Hmmm I think thats pretty much
everything for today i don't really have much to say although i should considering the fact that i haven't been to a site
that's been mine in ages.
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